We received Annalee's final autopsy results in December and they confirmed what we already suspected- her death was unpreventable, but they don't know what happened. There really couldn't have been a good answer, but I think this is the answer we were hoping for. It confirms that there's nothing we could've done and it eases a bit of worry for future pregnancies; At the same time it makes it that much more confusing and unfair. I'd like to think that at some point we'll be at peace with the results, but I still find myself asking why? Why us? Why our healthy baby who we loved and wanted so much?
I'm not sure I'll ever stop trying to figure out what happened- however pointless it may be.